john paul davis
animals
I know what you're thinking
in a person's skull there's not enough
room for two rabbits to roost
but there are two in mine
anyway I can feel them both
soft bodies fluttering
like fast creaky bellows
& I know the distinctiveness
of each rabbit voice
one a low static like the crackle
of freshly-stolen thunder
the other thin as a rain
of shattering glass.
Don't bother asking
which belongs to my rabbit
& which to yours
who has come to live
in me, you must have suspected
the second rabbit is yours
you must have felt it wriggle
out of you & into me first
time we kissed
they wrap around each other
& yours whispers to me
when I am lonesome
& I can feel it tremble
when you are frightened
this is how I find
you so easily in a large
crowd, this is how I know
when you are thirsty
I wonder sometimes if you
also carry two
in your head
& are they also rabbits
or some animal suited
to your needs maybe eagles
for instance wouldn't it be amazing
if I'd had an eagle in me
this entire time & hadn't known
until you & I'm curious if any other
couples know this exchange
or are we the first
which if we were that'd make us
a new nation
& the language
our descendants speak
will have a word which translates
literally as the trading
of animals which will be their word
for love & their romantic epistles
will say things like I'm your ark
I'm your zookeeper
darling I'm your menagerie
I feel like you know my rat
terrier better than I do please
marry me I promise to cherish
& protect your hoopoe
beloved we are perfect
for each other, you are a soft
cool place to lie in a pile
& I am a sturdy perch my throat
is filled with berries & birdseed.
Gender
My gender is a 4-inch beard oiled
with argen, rosemary & cloves
my gender is a plum quilted overcoat
in winter & a pastel pink straw hat
in summer
my gender is drawing flowers & valentines
during meetings at work, writing my beloved's name
over & over
my gender cooks dinner for both of us & washes
the dishes after, humming
My gender is brick after brick
on the basketball court in gym
class & my gender is forgetting
the dumb rules of football
my gender has to internet search who won
the Super Bowl
my gender is getting called fag
by the other straight boys
between the classroom trailers by the tennis
courts while they wail on me because my gender
wore purple pants & a flowing capelike
coat & sometimes
nail polish & barrettes
My gender was anointed with oil
by the pastor speaking in tongues
to stop the sin of masturbation
when I was fourteen
my gender was a stubborn sinner
thinking about the the goth girl who wrote poetry
in my algebra class
her black lipstick
& the static in her voice
My gender sometimes wants to wear a dress
hiked up to the knees
& crawl to my beloved
all fours with smudged
eyeliner & let her pet
my good boy head
my gender also wants to take
her gently by the throat
sometimes & speak only in commands
My gender tries each new grueling
exercise Taylor invents
tries to outdo him
pushes down the aching
glorying in my own sweat
My gender sings along
to Indigo Girls, Deftones, Tom Petty & Beyonce
loudly, off-key, uncaring, crying
My gender hated in 1987 to miss any episodes of
Star Trek The Next Generation
or Anne of Green Gables
my gender read all the Philip K Dick
by age 16 & also stole the Harlequin
novels my grandmother bought & read
those in secret
My gender is the moon & a trembling rabbit,
a tree in wind & the suspension cables
of the Brooklyn Bridge. My gender leans
against the bedroom wall like my bicycle
panting as it does after our long
rides up the Hudson
& my gender glimmers
like the cooking knives
waiting in my kitchen to slice
plus also my gender
is dogeared as the collected Anne Sexton
languishing on my bookshelf
My gender kisses my fiancée harder
to get as much red
on my mouth as possible
wears it proudly
looks in every reflective
surface, grinning
My gender is on fire
my gender a circle of fifths
my gender the boiling water hitting the coffee
anxious about when she'll text
dancing eyes closed my gender writing its private name
with an index finger in the mirror
in steam
John Paul Davis is a poet, musician and programmer. His work has appeared in numerous journals and anthologies including Four Way Review, RATTLE, MUZZLE, The Journal, Bennington Review, and Again I Wait For This To Pull Apart. His first collection of poetry, Crown Prince Of Rabbits, was published by Great Weather For Media in 2016. You can find out more about him at www.johnpauldavis.org.